silent night again

been a while since my last post.
feeling lazy to blog recently.
gonna sit for my 1st paper this Tuesday.
haven't prepare anything yet to be honest.

Mr. Yik said he knew why I wanted to go back OO.
although he loves to talk, everything he said is very meaningful.
He is like a mentor for me and Weng Chin.
Weng Chin gonna help OO even though he is the APM for TT, well thanks to his PM.
This time, I'm really all alone, no advice or pushing like last time.
But at least, I have this new people to support me, although it's more like I'm supporting them now.

Never seen you act like that before.
Wonder if you are fine or not.
I might talk too much,
But I have no any intention, except hoping you will be fine.

Doesn't feel like studying anymore.
Might just head off to bed, although I know I can't sleep.
Goodnight world.

quiet night

not sure what's in my mind.
feeling so different tonight.
How am I going to be a responsible person?
Facilitator for ATCL,
PM for OO,
Student for TARC,
Friend for friends,
Me for you.
I wish I could be a better person.
I joined ATCL for experiences, but now I'm not sure how much I can contribute since I have a bigger responsible for OO.
I joined OO for the past, to get rid of the scar in my heart and mind, although I'm sure the pain can't be erased forever, but now I'm wondering how things will go, and whether the same thing will happen again.
This time involvement will definitely sacrifices my studies and friends.
Will I able to catch up with all the things?
Friends been disagreeing me for joining OO again.
I'm sorry, maybe for you all, it's easy to forget pain.
But for me, this pain is the most painful memories in my life.
I wanted to do something about this, so that I wont feel regret for the rest of my life.
I disappointed you when you were by my side.
I hope this time, you will be sitting at the VIP seat, and watch my efforts as the Program Master for the one last time.
Such a complicated mind I have tonight.
Might just off to get some sleep.
K peace.

what to do?

mr yik said to me that,
A leader who do the work, is the fail leader.
A leader who order their subordinates do the work, is the successful leader.

a deep breath

before Web Based Programming 2 lab test.
Was busy recently because of the assignments.
Went to overnight on last Thursday,
And rushed assignments till Monday morning.
This is the first time I do assignment with 1 big gang.
We had fun together, feel stress together, and fall sick because of the assignment together.
Thanks God most of us pass for the assignment.
Had my English presentation today.
Hope our result wont be that bad.

On the side note,
The guy who chose to solo for the Web Based assignment,
He didn't present anything or even start coding anything.
But still, the lecturer still allowed him to pass the subject.
To be honest, Im pissed because you pass without doing anything,
Unlike us who slept at 4am for 4 days straight just because of the assignment.
But I know the lecturer's objective.
She wanted you to fail badly in next semester final mini project.
Your ego are too much.
I will sit there and watch you suffer.

It's time to work for OO.
I might just add some new stuff in the Checklist.

Courage

I have the courage to accept the Program Master position,
But I don't have the courage to do some certain thing.
What happen to me?

Seven

7 is a very magical number in Harry Potter series.
The stories end with a total of 7 books.
Harry was born in July, and Ginny is the 7th children of the Weasley's
Voldemort cursed his own soul for 7 Hocruxes, and Harry is the 7th Hocrux.
Hogwarts' students are required to complete their studies in 7 years, and there is 7 secret paths in Hogwarts.

There are also 7th Wonder of The World in ancient, now and also in other categories.
James Bond is the best agent of British Secret Services, with his famous agent code, 007.
7-Up, 7-Eleven, Windows 7 etc.

Apart from all this,
7 is my lucky number. I chose it because 17/11 is my birthday,
And I feel that 7 is the most unique number.
The most important thing is,
There was 6 person who made me grow up understanding what is love & cares.
From a person who never think of anything, but wished to love someone during secondary school,
I learnt and experienced many things from the 6 times failure.
And now, I have meet the 7th.
But who know what's going to happen in future?
J.K Rowling did well in her 7th book.
But God, how are you going to write the 7th book of my life?

no mood no mood

no mood to do assignment.
gonna overnight at friend's house tomorrow for group discussions.
doesn't feel like doing anything now.
might just off to bed.