1 more day

Seems like I will only have 1 more day in KL
Silly girl,sorry :(
You text me
But I dont know what to reply
You told me that Im a very good friend for you
Honestly,I want to try very best of me to be your good friend
But no matter how hard I try,you will always get hurt
I feel sorry for this
I feel so guilty for hurting you,my lovely silly girl
I feel that Im not worth for you to call as "good" friend
But no matter what,you trust me that Im a good friend
From this,I really hope I will change after NS training
I really hope so
Haih,
I dont know how I feel right now
I just miss your smile,your voice and your care for me
Will we see each other before I leave KL??
I really hope you will know how do I feel now
:(

Frustrated

Haih
Silly girl,
Sorry for every problem that I had brought to you
I dont know what else I can say
I just feel so sorry for you and sorry of myself
I feel ashamed of myself
I promised not to hurt you anymore but I keep on hurting you
I dont know how to express my feelings
I feel so frustrated
Because of all things that happened,
I had lost my appetite to eat
I rarely eat my lunch and barely eat my dinner for almost 3 weeks
I had lost my sense of humour
I dont know how to make jokes like before this
I laughed when friends make jokes,
But in my heart, I cant find the real funny in me
I lost the enjoyment of life as a human being
I cant feel any feelings
All the feelings,just come and go that fast and easily
I dont know what to do
I feel so lonely this time
:(

Hmm

I dont know how do I feel now
U free 2mrw but cant come due to transport problem
We argued because of this small matter
I feel so sorry,silly girl
Sorry for being so silly boy
:(

1st Day

Today is your 1st day of college life
Didnt talk much to you although I wish to
Dont feel like want to disturb you
Hmmm
How should I know things about you then??
Maybe I will just rely on facebook
Only few more days left for me
Really wish to have a good time with you before I leave

College College College

So,you are going to start your college life tomorrow
Which means I will have less time chatting with you
Hmmm
Let's see how we can get through this
I believe we can still close with each other although you will be busy
God,please lend me some strength to get through this
I dont want to feel moody because of no time chatting with her
I wont be like the old me
I want to overcome every kind of situation with my positive thinking
:)

Okay :)

Honestly,
I really want you to understand
Im not forcing myself
I really want to fix everything
I just want you to trust me
Thx for your answer
Now I know you trust me
I feel much more better and more motivated
Believe me,
I will learn how to love myself before I love others
Thx silly girl..

Trust

All I need is you to trust me
Maybe there is no any progress for my changes
But I really trying my best to do
I just want you to trust me
I will feel much more better and more motivate if I know you trust me
I dont want to give up :(

haih

Im a loser
I lose you as my lover and almost lose you as friend
I dont want this to happen
I really want to get through this together with you
Please,I beg you
Please do it for me too
:(

Running Away

Sorry if I make you feel hard this few days
I dont want to run away anymore
I just want to fix it together with you
I want to face it together with you
This is what I want to do before I leave
I really dont want to leave with guilty

Hmmm

Didnt sms you this whole day
Maybe is because I dont want to disturb you
Always be the 1 who sms you 1st is making me feel like Im very annoying
haih :(
I dont know how to face this
I dont want to keep running away :(

:(

I know Im being selfish and desperate
All I want is just to make you feel comfortable talking to me
I dont have much time left
I just want to make it before I go
But there is too many obstacle
I dont know what to do
:(

Hmmm

Im officially resigned from Daily Kopitiam
I will back to my normal life
Sitting in front of pc for the whole day
Haih
I will have more time to communicate with you
But I scare I will make you feel that Im annoying
Hmmm
I will just follow the flow of situation

Just view back Kyle's Blog
Saw some old pic that make me remind of you
I do miss every sweet memories we had last time
I miss you
:(

:)

Last night,you told me today will be your last day working
I planned of passing by your shop,
Maybe just to take a look at you
Is been 3 months I didnt see you face to face
I passed by your shop today
I purposely walk there
I saw you,but not so clearly because it is dark in your shop
So,I decided to continue my walk to work
But at the end,
I make up my mind to just go in and see you
I sms you,but you didnt reply
I thought of just leave that place
But thx God,
When my bus reach,you finally replied my text
I think this is the chance for me to see you
I lied to you bout breakfast
Im not really want to eat breakfast
I had lost my appetite to eat recently
All I want is just to see you
I really miss you so much

Looking at your smile make me feel so glad and maybe,a bit sad
You didnt talk to me much
But I dont blame you
Maybe you still feel uncomfortable talking to me
This time visit,
Will be the 1st and the last time for me to see you
I dont know when I will be able to see you
Im leaving soon
I just hope to see you in a better way before I leave
But only this is what God can give to me
I will just have to follow the fate

I will remember your smile on today when Im at Sarawak
I really will remember it
This blog will let you know my feeling in this remaining time
This blog will be a present for you before I leave
This blog will let you realize Im really growing up for you
I hope you will be always thinking of me after reading this blog
Dear Silly Girl,I will miss you so much :)

Hmmm

Things seems fine now
We are starting to know each other like before this
I just hope it will be improve more
In my mind now,
I doesnt think of chance to be your lover
All I want is just to have you in my life
Others thing,just let the fate to decide it
I hope you will understand this
:)

Lied

I lied to you again
About forgetting you all after going NS
Im sorry for hurting you
But I dont have choice
All I can do is just to love you silently
Sorry
:(

Haih

All I need is just a chance to prove to you tat I had changed
Why you dont want to give me a chance?
I waited for a month
But you came back and told me you have boyfriend
Why you dont want to give me a chance?
You promised you will wait for me to change
But why you cant do as what you had promised?
Lai Yee,my heart feel so pain
:(

Hmmm

You said you are actually care bout me
But for me,I cant feel that
If you really care bout me,
Do you know my feelings right now?
I just want we chat like before this
I want we get back the comfortable feeling with each other
If you really care,
Why cant you try to open your heart for me again?
Why you want to keep running away from this problem?
Do you really want to let it happen till forever?
I just want you to understand my feeling right now
:(

Not Enough Time

I dont have much time anymore
All I want is just to make you feel comfortable talking to me
But you said you dont have choice
Cant you just open your heart for me?
I really need it
I feel so hurt
Can stop running away from this problem?
Can we solve it before I leave??
Please :(

Leaving Soon

Im leaving soon
27th of March and I will be going to Sarawak
I dont have much time now
I realize I will have a lot of things to be prepare before I depart to Sarawak
I wish I can see you
Is been like 2 months plus I didnt see you face to face
I really want to see you
If I go to Sarawak,
I wont be able to see you for 3 months
And,
It will be 6 months for me for not seeing you
I miss you,Lai Yee
I just want to see you
:(

Hmmm

I feel so lonely all this time
Thinking of you is really killing me
I do feel like want to make myself get into coma
I really feel like want to end my pain
I dont want to care about anything
I just want to sleep and wont wake up for a long time
The love we had are really killing me
I really cant forget about our story
You kissed my right hand
Everytime when I look at my right hand,
My heart feel so pain and sad
I feel that you are with me,
But your heart is not with me
And your love is not with me

My heart feel so pain
I have to pretend that I dont love you anymore in front of you
I have to pretend that I really let go of you
I have to pretend all this just to make you feel happy with your love one
It is all because I love you
I really want you to know my feeling
But I cant
I dont want to destroy your happiness
I have no choice but to keep it in my heart
:(

My Life Without You

This is a blog that only me myself know the existence of it
This will be the place for me to voice out my feeling
Is better if there's no one know about this blog

Haih
Where should I start 1st??
I dont know actually
Things had gone very far
I will just make a conclusion
You have a boyfriend now
:(

I told you that I will let go of you
This is the only way for me to love you
But honestly to tell you,
I cant let go of you
I really cant let go of you

It is so hard for me to be 2 different person
I have to be a guy without any problem during working time
But at the same time,
I feel so depressed with what had happened
I have to act like nothing happened at all

I really hope you will come back to me
I cant live my life normally
:(