I'm kinda back

Hey, I'm back, for a while.
Been preparing myself for the final exam.
Overnight at friend's house with a bunch of crazy gang.
We been doing study group from afternoon till 4am.
McDonald was our 1st location before we move to friend's house.

Hehe. We had 2 sets of Family Dinner Box before we continue our revision.
I made a last minute decision to stay overnight with them later on.
Continued our revision at home till 2am.

We all was seriously mad and crazy.
After the revision, we played DOTA and off to bed at 4am.
Woke up at 7am, and went to college for our 9am paper.
Well I gotta say that this kinda study method is very effective eh.
I think we all might pass the 1st paper.
Gonna have another study spree with the gang tomorrow.
Overnight plan again, fun time.
K peace out.
Cya on the next few days :)

bad decision

I'm supposed to join study group at college.
But I decided to stay at home.
Staying at home is terribly boring.
Spent whole day studying chapter 1.

Saw an interesting quote today

Aim In Life Must Be "6 5 4 3 2 1 0"
6 Digits of Salary
5 Days of Work
4 Wheels Vehicle
3 Apartments
2 Cute Children
1 Sweetheart
0 Tension

i wonder

I'm always around when people need me,
No matter in real life, or e-life.
It makes me wondering,
Will people glad of my existence?
Is there someone who wish I'm gone from their life?
When I was still an emo brat,
If there is someone who wish I'm gone,
I will stupidly disappear from their life,
And do stuff to show them,
Hey, I'm gone now, just so you know okay.
Now, things are kinda different eh.
When I recalled back those attitude,
I feel kinda stupid and retard.

I love to think when I have free time,
But recently, I don't know what I should think.
Things seems to be kinda different now.
Feel like being lost.
What is the reality? What is the imagination?
Why does imagination end up with this reality?
Where am I?
Reality? Imagination? Or in the middle?
Where do you wish to be?
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Christmas eh?

Christmas night now.

Been doing nothing since the eve.
Slept whole day thanks to Mr. Flu + Mrs. Sore Throat + Ms. Headache.
Gaming during the night time till 5am with buddy who came overnight.

My mind been feeling empty no matter what I'm trying to think.
Buddy randomly picked a song and played it out of boredom.
While listening to it,
My heart suddenly feel so sad.


Such a peaceful night eh?
Merry Christmas to whoever viewing this post right now.

finally

after spending 1 week time doing web-based programming assignment,
we managed to get the highest mark among our group.
Seriously, never spend so much time and effort for an assignment.
Friends are getting closer with each other in this 1 whole week.
We slept together, eat together and code together.
Went to Times Square today for karaoke session with them.
Decided to watch Mission Impossible 4 : Ghost Protocol later on.
Spent our evening chit chatting at a new restaurant there.

It's kinda heartbroken to see Ethan,
Sacrificing everything in his life,
Just to protect his lovely wife.
At the end, he's still willing to watch his wife from far knowing that he can't get close to her in order to protect her.

Well, feel like kinda sick.
Hope I'm gonna feel better before the paper on Friday.

battle battle battle

been battling for the web-based assignment since last Wednesday.
Everyday went to college, including Saturday and Sunday.
Supposed to be done by today.
But a bunch of errors occurred.
Thanks to tutor for allowing us to submit it on this Thursday.
Yeah, gonna fight for another 2 more days.
Feel like kinda getting close with the gang.
We been doing lots of crazy and shit stuff during this tiring week.
And I love this pic lots.

We spend our time and money at college's Paparich for 5 days straight.
Kinda feel bored with it now.
K peace out.
Wanna re-charge myself.

feeling tired and lazy

spent like 7 hours with coding.
This time, we locked ourselves at MU MCD.
Logic is killing me.
Didn't touch Netbeans after I reach home.
Don't feel like doing anything.

In another life,
You would be my girl.
We keep all our promises,
Be us against the world.
In another life,
I would make you stay.
So I don't have to say
You were the one that got away.

not bad eh?

9.30am,
sitting alone now at CITC,
Looking at the chilling environment,
Listening to A Thousand Years.

like a bee

Been busy with this web based assignment for few days.
Went back to college today just for assignment.
Can't take it anymore and finally decided to walk around KLCC and Pavilion with a friend after spending 7 hours with all the coding.
Gonna go to college again on tomorrow.
Gonna hit 7 days streak for sticking my ass around college.

Song of the day
I Will Remember You by Sarah Mclachlan

I will remember you.

Will you remember me?

Almost lost my wallet yesterday. (4.18am now)
Feel freaking nervous and went outside to look for it.
Dad called and said there is a guy who came to our house and hand over my wallet.
Feel so glad, although I didn't manage to see that nice person face.
But I think I know where he lives.
Sincerely hope that God will bless this nice person.

Was pretty tired.
Slept at 10pm and woke up now caused of some weird dreams.
Assignment are killing me.
I gotta off to college later as well just to rush the assignment.

1st time watching the MV after listening to the song for 6 months plus.
This song always remind me of you.
You might not know what it has to do with you.
It's okay.
Sigh, I shall back to sleep.

any meaning?

any meaning for that dream??
aigh.
feeling so sleepy now.
class at 8am.

login login

my brain been stuck with the logic of user validation for our assignment.
kinda headache now.
been looking at the laptop screen for whole day.
Was having a deep conversation with a friend this evening.
And she dropped her tears because of assignment.
It makes me wonder,
How hard is it to achieve a good teamwork?

different

everything feels so different now.
Feel like kinda losing direction.
Where should I go?
What should I do?

kinda disappointing

the presentation are kinda disappointing.
Although my group are all pass for the assignment and everything,
I still feel a bit disappointed.
To be honest, among my group members, I'm the only one who are able to present well.
I can actually score much more higher than them.
But the marks given are based on group presentation, not individual.
I have no choice but to follow the natural rules.
I don't blame them, because I had predicted this kinda stuff will happen.
I tried my best to help them though.
But I guess I fail to put enough effort in helping them.
Am I being a selfish person?
I just hope I'm not becoming someone bad in future.
Sigh, feel like crapping lots.
Maybe cause I'm kinda sleepy now.

demanding eh?

No one can be perfect.
But everything and everyone around you will always demand for perfection.
You can never satisfy them.
Gonna have presentation today.
But I'm still sitting in front of laptop and blog.
I'm suppose to be in the bus right now.
Just feel that I should miss it.
Wish I will get hit by something hard.
I wanna close my eyes and my mind for some time,
Ignoring everything in reality for a while.

Life / Programming

Don't know why, I have the urge to blog earlier than usual.
Maybe I'm kinda tired recently.
I realized my logic for programming are getting better.

It makes me wonder,
If life gonna be like programming, things might be a little bit different.
I can code whatever variables for everything in my life,
Build as many classes I want to store it,
Create whatever functions I wish to run it,
Developing any logic I like to link it,
Every pieces of coding represents every element in my life.
Every errors occurred represents every obstacles in my life.
When I successfully develop a perfect program,
I will feel satisfy for it,
Just like how satisfy you feel for your life when you finally get what you want.
But hey,
There is only 1 different between programming and life.
In programming, you can delete everything and restore it back with a backup data/file.
In life, you won't have any backup file.
Programming can be run with many cycles,
But life only have 1 cycle.
No matter what's gonna happen in your life,
Face it, don't sit there and "emo".
That's kinda waste of time.

Feeling Empty

Didn't talk at all today.
Feeling so empty.
Tried my best to fill up myself with works, assignments, and even games.
But still, I don't feel like a normal person.

Human, lives their life depending too much on "If".
Everyone need a "if" to motivate and improve themselves.
Some died because there's too many "if" in their thoughts.
IF all the things happening now is just a dream,
I wish I wont wake up.
I will continue fighting in this dream.
There are too many things I wish to understand.
Love and bonds, is one of it.

"Cause there'll be no sunlightif I lose you, babyThere'll be no clear skiesif I lose you, babyJust like the clouds,my eyes will do the same if you walk awayEveryday, it will rain,rain, rain"
It Will Rain - Bruno Mars

Ah

How well do I understand you?
Yeah, I'm an idiot.
I had a bunch of time to know you.
But instead of that,
I spent it all on stressing myself up with the event.
Such a waste.

What's actually going on with you?
Deactivated your Facebook?
Removed me from your Skype?
I won't whine.
All I want is to know whats happening.
You know I will be sad
And I can assume you are suffering and trying to avoid me.
Texted you, and I believed you might even ignore the text.
Everything happening now is much more worst than I ever feel.

You become one of the people who brings big impact to my life.
Last time,
Every single thing happened will caused me being emo all the time.
But you?
You made me realize that everything you done,
No matter it's gonna make me happy, unhappy or feeling down,
The day still goes on.
At the same time, I keep telling myself that everything gonna be fine somehow.
Even now, I still hope things gonna be fine sooner or later, no matter how impossible it is.
Your presence in my life, has changed me a lot, although no one realize about it.
Sorry for hurting you.
Sorry for making you suffered .
Sorry for not realizing what's happening to you.
Sorry for not knowing what I have done to you and your feeling.
I wonder if you ever read my blog all this time.

What's Going On?

Is everything alright for you?
I wonder why you deactivated your Facebook.
I know I might sounds silly,
But I wish you will pop-up somewhere and tell me what's going on.
I'm worried about you the whole day.
I'm worried about you the moment I saw this
"The page you requested was not found"


"i think u are a really good friend, when i'm sad and youre always thr for me."
Remember this?
This is what you told me few months ago.
I know you are having hard times although you always told me you are doing fine and good.
But I choose not to ask more because I don't want to force you.
I don't know what's the stuff bugging your mind right now,
But hey silly, my ears are always available for you.
Hope you are doing fine there.
Miss bugging you on Skype.

never easy

Today's weather are pretty nice.
While walking early in the morning,
Inhaling the fresh air,
Walking under the beautiful sunshine,
I looked at the clear skies,
Wishing for something miracle to happen today.
But seems like fate need me to wait for a little longer.
Waiting can never be easy.
Don't make it harder by not knowing what we are waiting for.

Something Missing

Feel like there's something missing in me.
I feel so dull all the day.
Thought of sharing some stories with sis Pui Kei.
But blehhh,
She said she don't want to know.
Feel more dull.
Oh hi Pui Kei!
I know you gonna read this, since you asked me to blog bout you today.
I WANNA GO SLEEP NOW!
PLEASE SAY GOOD NIGHT TO ME ON MSN NOWWWWW!
ugh.
speechless.
peace.
out.

Demotivated

Many things to do.
Many technical issues occurred.
Web-based programming is getting more challenging.
Compare to Assignment 1,
I can easily think of the logic of every linking.
But now Assignment 2,
I can't even build a simple HTML file.
It's not hard though,
But I'm stuck with the logic of building and linking what kinda page etc etc.
With the additional of database features,
I'm feeling so demotivated.

Feel that you might having problems.
Hope everything gonna be fine for you somehow.

If you are stuck in a river, it's best for you to swim with the current flow.
Let everything to go with the flow.
You might end up somewhere.
At least there's still some hope for you.
You can choose to go against the flow.
You might end up floating at the same direction for a long time.
You might get stuck in the river, with no hope at all.

Recently, I always told myself.
"Follow the flow, 顺其自然"
I realized that if I've been pushing a lot of things,
Things might stray away from its flow.
At the end, everyone gonna suffer over the consequences.
I should just take it slowly.
But, flow is a very complicated yet amazing thing.
There are some flow which will bring you to a road of giving up.
If you're not willing to give up,
You can become a wind, blowing around and create a new flow for yourself.
And that flow, might bring you to a different result.
A brand new journey.

Maybe

Sometimes I might be a lil bit disturbing.
I guess I shall control myself from time to time.
It's very rare for me to blog early in the morning.
I just don't want to make any silly mistakes again.
Gonna off to college soon.
Be back later

Ugh

What a day.
Database assignment need to redo.
Not only my team, but also the whole tutorial group.
Wish to blame someone, but that's not important anymore.
I just wanna complete all the assignment.

Seems like you are busy with your studies.
Wish you are doing good.
Was lectured by a friend today.
A lot's of stuff flying around my mind.
I guess I should stop thinking and off to bed.
Good night. Peace.

Updates Updates!

Yeah, kinda lame title.
My brain kinda malfunctioned a bit caused of Maths assignment.
So, what happened recently?

Went to Perak yesterday.
Was a "Not bad" trip with a tour group.
Most of them are senior citizen.
I realized they do enjoy their life till the end.
They loves to sing those old Chinese songs and they loves to share their stories with each other.
And it's kinda sad to see some of them are alone during the trip.
Am I going be just like them someday?
Imagine 40 years later, I'm singing "A Thousand Years" to my child/grandchildren.
It's gonna be awkward :P
Well, if you wanna know more bout the trip, do visit my Facebook.
There's photos available for you.

So,
Just done my presentation today.
Glad to know my group get the highest for both assignment and presentation.
Thanks for your wish as well :P
Slept like a boss during Maths lecture.
Yeah, overtired after a trip.
While walking out,
My lecturer met me and said I look handsome today. X)
Such a nice and funny lecturer. I like her so much. Gonna score her paper no matter what!
Kinda guilty cause I slept during her lecture though. :P

Everything seems to be awesome today.
A great quote for myself,
"Sometimes, what you want isn’t what you get. But in the end, what you get is so much better than what you wanted "
I'm sure you are sleeping like a beauty right now.
Well, hope you gonna sleep tight.
And I'm off to bed too.
Wanna continue my sleep :P
Peace out! :)

what's wrong with me?

I don't know what's wrong with me.
I'm supposed to attend for a college event(ATCL) gathering tomorrow morning.
But instead, I choose to follow my family for a trip to Ipoh.
Is kinda last minute decision.
I'm not sure why I did that.
I don't know what will happen next.
Kinda confusing.

A Thousand Years

Heartbeat fast,
Colors and promises.
How do be brave?
How can I love,
When I'm afraid to fall.
But watching you stand alone,
All of my doubt
Suddenly goes away somehow.

One step closer.

I have died everyday waiting for you.
Darling don't be afraid,
I have love you for a thousand years
I'll love you for a thousand more.

Time stands still,
Beauty in all she is.
I will be brave,
I will not let anything take away,
What standing in front of me.
Every breath,
Every hour has come to this.

One step closer.

I have died everyday waiting for you.
Darling don't be afraid,
I have love you for a thousand years.
I will love you for a thousand more.

And all along I believe
Time would find you
Time has brought your heart to me,
I have love you for a thousand years.
I will love you for a thousand more.

A song from Christina Perri.
A Thousand Years.
Believe it or not,
I typed out the whole lyrics,
Without referring to or copy/paste from any sources.
Been listening to this song over and over again since yesterday.
Yeah, the only song in my playlist.
What's my mood?
I think the song explains everything.
So much things in my head recently.
It's not that I'm being silly for not sharing it.
But I can't find the right person.
Even there is 1, I'm not sure whether the lil one are willing to hear my problems.
Have the strong feel that no one gonna read this part.
They might immediately close the tab when they see the lyrics.
But if you manage to get to here, thanks for reading.
Im tired, peace out.