Chance

Purposely let go few chances today.
I don't know what am I thinking.
So down.

Behavior

Different people have different behaviors.
Glad that I met a lots of people in my life.
I know who is my true friend, and who's not.
Was in a lecture hall today.
There is a girl standing outside the hall and waiting for someone.
A buddy of mine poked me, and said :
"Isn't it good if that girl is her, waiting for you?"
My heart sunk although I pretended to smile.
I don't know what I had done wrong to you.
I'm sorry.
If there's a way to fix it,
I will give it a try.

Change?

1st Practical class for Database.
The lecturer is an ass.
Scolded me and my friends for wearing slipper to the class.
Well, we know slipper aren't allowed in college,
But even the security guards doesn't stop us from entering college.
What's your right to scold us then?
Your brain are too stubborn as well to accept answers from student.
"Your answer is not impossible, but it is very inefficient"
What do you expect from me?
A perfect answer?
I would be glad if you just tell the goddamn answer instead of keep repeating the "impossible and inefficient" stuff on me.
Seriously, your 1st impression for me,
I don't like you much.

A friend been telling me to change and improve a little part of me on how I treat girls.
I don't know what I should change.
Becca told me that maybe I treat girls too good.
She said I need to be bad ass a bit because girls like it.
Ahhh, I don't know what happen to me.
I think I should learn how to know when a girl feel that you are annoying.
I'm seriously sucks at that.

Random

Another day
Without your smile
Another day just passes by
But now I know
How much it means
For you to stay
Right here with me

The time we spent apart will make our love grow stronger
But it hurt so bad I can't take it any longer

I wanna grow old with you
I wanna die lying in your arms
I wanna grow old with you
I wanna be looking in your eyes
I wanna be there for you
Sharing everything you do
I wanna grow old with you

A thousand miles between us now
It causes me to wonder how
Our love tonight remains so strong
It makes our risk right all along

The time we spent apart will make our love grow stronger
But it hurt so bad I can't take it any longer

I wanna grow old with you
I wanna die lying in your arms
I wanna grow old with you
I wanna be looking in your eyes
I wanna be there for you
Sharing everything you do
I wanna grow old with you

Things can come and go I know but
Baby I believe
Something's burning strong between us
Makes it clear to me

I wanna grow old with you
I wanna die lying in your arms
I wanna grow old with you
I wanna be looking in your eyes
I wanna be there for you
Sharing everything you do
I wanna grow old with you

Special Day?

Feel so uncomfortable this whole day.
Been searching for something everywhere I go.
Something that can't be found by my eye.
Only my heart can find and feel it.
But still, I can't find what I want.
And the only thing I feel, is sadness.


Love, it's a special day
We should celebrate and appreciate
That you and me found something pretty neat
And I know some say this day is arbitrary

But it's a good excuse, put our love to use
Baby, I know what to do
Baby, I...
I will love you
I'll love you, I'll love you

Love, I don't need those things
I don't need no ring
I don't need anything
But you with me
Cause in your company
I feel happy, oh so happy and complete

This song been stuck in my head this whole day while I'm looking for what I want.
Really a special day for me.

Interesting

A friend of mine said something interesting today.
"If a guy still come back after being hurt by the girl, she should just choose to live with him for the rest of her lifetime"
I was thinking,
Yeah, maybe he is right.
Talked to Becca about this.
And she told me,
"That depends on the girl, whether she actually has feelings for him or not"
Well,
Me and Becca come to a conclusion that,
Human beings are difficult to understand.

Anyway,
Tomorrow have class.
I HATE replacement class on Saturday.
FML.

Past

My life is always full with challenges.
Everything that happened, makes me see a lot of things from various perspective.
I been through lots of situation.
Happy, sad, tears, stress, disappointment, etc and etc.

Since I met this girl,
It was my 1st time to see the world.
She taught me how to love someone in this world.
From care become love, love become disappointment,
Disappointment become hate, and hate become nothing.
I learned everything from what I had been through.

When I'm think back what I had done,
Sometimes I feel so silly of myself,
I never sing songs for a girl.
I never worried so much about a girl.
I never kiss a girl before.
I never hold a girl's hand before.
I never cried for a girl like it is the end of the world.
Because of this girl, I did everything above.
Although it's over,
I do appreciate it.

You probably is the 1st person I loved the most, and hated the most.
But thank you for everything.
Every single lessons from you are very precious for my entire life.
I will do my best, to love the one who willing to accept my love.
You probably are in the flight to UK now.
Good luck and all the best for you.
Thank you for everything.

Space

Kinda moody at the moment.
Fail 1 subject.
I'm expecting this to happen the moment I joined OO.
Well, at least my GPA are at the green zone for me to continue getting loan from PTPTN.

Wonder what I did wrong today.
Maybe Becca is right.
Everyone need some space though.
As long as I wont get forgotten,
I should be fine with that.

What You Are

1st time to blog at the evening.
Kinda have the thought that I might forget what I feel for today.
I do realized I'm the kind of guy who always push myself to get something.
When I unable to get it,
I feel depressed, disappointed and emo,
Conclusion = an idiot.

But today, I feel that I'm kinda different.
I didn't get things I want for today.
Instead of being an idiot,
I told myself this time,
"At least you tried your best. Is okay if you didn't get the chance, but everything will work out somehow, someday."
Yeah, guess what?
Good thing always happen the moment you told yourself that everything will be fine.
I'm kinda love today.
And this song,
Is kinda make me feel something special about today (Just for me, not sure about you all :P )

Kinda headache now.
Gonna peace out to bed!
Have a nice night everyone :)

What A Day

Gotta admit the lecture is boring.
I always disagree how the college conduct a Mathematical subjects.
Having lectures for Maths subjects is just a waste of time.
Students wont learn anything from listening and copying a bunch of crap notes.
Practice is the most important.

Doesn't plan anything for today.
But went to TS and watched Johnny English Reborn.
1st time to be inside the GSC Max.
The hall is very awesome.

The movie is good too.
Had a good laugh throughout the whole movie.
Even you are dumb, but sometimes you can be much more successful than a smart person.

My body doesn't feel very well.
Body temperature are kinda rising.
Bones feel kinda tired and pain.
Ughh.
What a day.

New Semester

Finally, 10 more hours till my 2nd Semester.
I believe this semester I will need to deal with OO stuff.
Yeah, to settle down everything.
I know I will have a little bit hard time,
But that's my responsible.

Having a 1st problem right now.
I'm not sure whether I can wake up at 6.30am or not.
Night.

Someone Like You

Was having movie spree for almost 3 days.
Had watched more than 10 movies.
Actually, I'm doing this just to clear my mind from all the thoughts.
All I want is just focus on movie, movie, movie.....

But now, I just realized there's 3 more days left.
I don't even know what I wanna do.
I scare a simple thing from me, will cause a huge complication again.

Come to think about it
You kinda remind me of my sister.
The way both of you talk are kinda same.
Well, I miss talking to both of you.
Is been a while I didn't really chat with my sister, because of her final exam.
Is been a very long time I didn't chat with you, because of I-Don't-Know.

Insane

Went to park with buddy during the evening.
And with the sudden change of plan,
We went to JJ and wandering around till 8pm.
Reach home at 9pm.
Had a movie spree from 10pm till now, 6.30am.
Troy, Clash of The Titans and Hancock.
I gotta blame this insomnia again.
This is insane.
I really don't like this insomnia :(

Here I Go

Always tried my best not to take a nap during evening.
But at the end, I woke up after 7pm.
It makes me unable to sleep at night.
And here I go again, insomnia-ing.

Stomachache at the middle of Lilo & Stitch movie.
I guess I get food poisoning.
Pretty bad luck of me, again.

Started to feel kinda down since yesterday.
Including today as well.
Feel a lil bit disappointed.
Maybe, I should't ZXhwZWN0IHRvbyBtdWNoIGZyb20geW91 .

Ughh. 

Is already 6.11am.

And I'm still awake.
I effing hate insomnia so much!! :(

Torturing

This semester break is very very torturing.
Didn't have much outing.
Everyday been facing laptop.
Facebook, IRC, Tetris, Maple, Mafiacrime, Youtube and Jango.
4 more days before the holiday end.
Result is coming out soon.
Have the feel that I'm going to fail 2 subjects, or more.
Damn.
\o/

Hmmm. Suddenly feel kinda down. Like my heart is
missing something. :(

I'm so scared now.

Mid Autumn Festival

Well, I didn't really celebrate it for like 6 years.
I don't really feel like I'm part of this family since 7 years ago.
Sometimes, I do feel like being Itachi Uchiha, the famous anime character in Naruto.
If you doesn't read the manga,
Itachi Uchiha is a member of Uchiha Clan.
He slaughtered the entire clan to bring peace for the Konoha Village.
He is actually doing a right thing.
Because his clan is full of hatred and greedy enough to overthrow the village.
This same goes to my family.
Everyone of this family are bloody materialistic and greedy.
And because of this, it caused hatred among each other.
I'm being a tool for them since I was born.
I'm seriously tired of their bullshit.
Its make me seriously wanna crush this entire family.
Enough with my "family talk"
Go Itachi!

Well, speak about Mid Autumn Festival,
There was 1 incident happened during the last time I celebrate it.
Yeah, I been holding the lantern and walk around the road with my neighbors' children.
The candle drop of my lantern fell off right on my foot.
It was bloody pain since its kinda big drop.
I immediately take it off right after the candle drop went dried.
As the result, that part of my skin was gone and now,
There is an unforgettable scar...


Well, I feel that tonight post is kinda silly.
K. Shall just sign off and go play some DOTA.
Happy MoonCake Festival to yall :)
\o/~

Wowww

This is sucks.
Insomnia truly killing me.
Just came back from CC with my buddy.
Now I'm bloody energetic and can't sleep at all.
Guess what I'm doing now.
Browsing through my Facebook friend list.
Yeah. I'm gonna check through the 1863 people in my friend list to kill some time.
Wowwww. This is shit. F.M.L \o/

Suffering

Yeah. This is bullshit.
Been having insomnia these few days.
Unable to sleep at the right timing for 4 days straight.
Always sleep at 5 or 6am, and wake up at 12pm.
This semester break is boring.
Didn't do much stuff.
Spent most of my time in IRC (Internet Relay Chat), trolling around like a badass mofo.

Come to think about it,
Im glad to join MafiaCrime, an online text-based mafia game, almost 3 years ago.
I get to know many friends around the world.
Brad and Dale, both are admin of the game and they lived in UK.
Funny friends, and I even Whatsapp Brad recently for fun :P
Dale helped me lots in my studies while I'm in Semester 2.

Cassy, a hawt babe from Norway :P
She is the most sweetest person I ever met in cyber world.
Still remember that I entrusted her with my sexy game account while I'm gone for National Service.

Stan, a badass internet troller from Canada.
He is younger than me like 4 years.
And he taught me how to DOS(Denial of Services)
Thanks to him as well, I learned how to get my own free website :D

Adam, aka RevCo is a very nice person as well.
He is an old punk who lived in California.
I talked to him a lot, and he always give me advice when I have troubles in real life.
There are too many people to mention since IRC is a place for people to come and go.
I seriously have a thought to ask all of them to come over here.
I'm gonna bring them out for KL Tour :P

What a joke!
Can't even believe I blogged about my internet friends.
Well, that shows you how bored I'm.
Oh btw,
I'm gonna try to maı̸̸̸̸̸̸̸̸̸̸̸̸̸̸̸̸̨̨̨̨̨̨k­e u wipe your screen.
:P

What's In My Mind?

Lots of stuff.
Don't know who to whine.
Been looking for people to express it.
But either they have no interests, or just speechless.

Someone from the past said this to me :
"Understand yourself, before you understand someone"
Till now, I gotta admit that I don't even understand myself.
What do I want?
Why my life is so unusual than the others?

Yeah, I'm an over-deep-thinking person.
Sometimes, I will over think something simple.
Sometimes, I will think deeply of something.
I'm a very caring person too as a friend.
But if there is someone special to me,
I will become a terrible over-caring person.
This is the only 2 things that make me hate about myself.
When this happen on someone,
Not many of them will really understand me.
They will either hate me, or feel that I'm childish.

There was a girl who do really hurt me because of my bad personalities.
Because of her, I gone through a lots of hurtful things.
Sadness, lies and regret.
It took me almost 1 year to overcome everything.
Thanks to her,
I learned a lots of stuff as well.
But still, it's not enough for me.
Human are just complicated.

Honestly, I stopped being obsessed of your fb profile for almost a week.
In other words, I tried my best not to "stalk" you as much as before.
I am such an annoying bastard.
I know you gonna hate me so much right now

Passed by my old blog
Whenever I look at it,
I feel that
Wow, I'm truly an immature person.
But mehh, blog is still a place for me to whine.
No matter mature or immature stuffs.

A brand new world

After been through a lots of things,
I realized that human are very naive.
They tend to judge you by just seeing how you work.
And they are too lazy to really understand how you work.
When you are sucks, they wont want you to join them anymore.
They refuse to let you learn more to improve yourself
All they care, is the output of the work.
Not your effort, sacrifices and the will of learning.

This kind of people, yes they are very a successful person.
But they are absolute fail for me.
They tend to neglect the meaning of life.
Doing event as a very freshman Program Master,
Is a very hardcore and challenging things.
Because of my weakness, I lost a lots of thing.

Hell yes I'm going to be strong.
But it will take some time.
There is still a mark in my mind and heart.
A very painful memories and feelings.

Facebook are getting no privacy for me.
Barely update any statuses because it's useless when no one gonna care bout how I feel.
When I care about someone, they will think "You are annoying.".
It's ****** hurt, you know?
I'm sure you wont even care.

Debbie is right, FB is getting useless.