Frustrated

Haih
Silly girl,
Sorry for every problem that I had brought to you
I dont know what else I can say
I just feel so sorry for you and sorry of myself
I feel ashamed of myself
I promised not to hurt you anymore but I keep on hurting you
I dont know how to express my feelings
I feel so frustrated
Because of all things that happened,
I had lost my appetite to eat
I rarely eat my lunch and barely eat my dinner for almost 3 weeks
I had lost my sense of humour
I dont know how to make jokes like before this
I laughed when friends make jokes,
But in my heart, I cant find the real funny in me
I lost the enjoyment of life as a human being
I cant feel any feelings
All the feelings,just come and go that fast and easily
I dont know what to do
I feel so lonely this time
:(