How Do I Feel

This is the first time i blog using mobile app.
I've been thinking alot bout someone recently.
There is a strong feel inside me, wish to tell her how I feel bout everything.
But in reality, does she feel she need to care?
Who am I actually in her world?
Does I even exist in her world?

ahhh so busy

yes i've been busy with college stuff.
adv diploma is srsly tiring.
legal issue, flash, mobile computing, object-oriented assignmets, midterms and more stuff need to be done.
gonna go for a Windows 8 workshop tomorrow as well.
had a talk with a friend from UK.
We are going to code a game from scratch and release it to public.
And I'm getting 5% of the ownership,
which technically making me a freelance programmer, and get payment monthly.
its still in the planning progress though.
i guess i should off now
bye

feel like blogging

yeah 1.10am here
doesnt feel like sleeping although have morning class later.
been listening to 988 radio.
All those songs are like calming my mind.

We are the master of our time.
We have the power to make the time slow or fast.
And we always hope to have the power to stop time.

attitudes

friend said I should change my attitude.
But why?
I'm always pissed when something done without planning.
When I plan, no one cares.
Things get delayed, time wasted.
Who wouldn't not pissed if things are done without any planning?

I dislike friends who change their mind with what they wanna say or do, for like every minutes.
Seriously, I dislike this type of people, as what the Chinese said, "God is you, ghost is also you"

I dislike us doing stuff like we are the most influential people and others should give privileges to us first.
We are nobody in this society and I don't want to be special by disrespecting others.

I wish I can tell you all sometimes we are making these mistakes.
But most of you think I'm just some immature friend with immature ideology.
You think I'm the one with the lowest IQ and EQ among us.
Whatever man.
The life is yours.
Not mine, I have my own life, own world, and only me can understand myself.

coincidence ?!

you was just right in front of me.

and I can feel that you saw me as well.

must be.

it must be very sweet to have someone you like, lying in your arms, sleeping.
to be able to hug them, kiss them,
its like the best thing ever in life.
not some sex or french kiss,
but just hugging someone you love, lying in your arms while sleeping.
its gonna be a very long day today.
enjoy.

being push around

I hate being push around like I'm no body and not important.
Friends treated me that way yesterday during class.
All decide for me to join other group for assignment.
Fuck I dont need anyone to decide for me,
The moment you decide for me, its being very disrespecting for me.
My mom treated me the same when I was young and I never spoke to her for 7 years till recently.
I'm not a ball for you to kick around.
Show some respect.