Why Still Look Back?

I asked myself,
Why still stalk, why still read, why still care?
being rejected, not giving up, being ignored.
tried to be friendly and normal but end up being treated like I'm a very bad person to talk with.
tried to joke but end up being told I'm not funny.
but I still read, watch, care, stalk.
now i ask myself,
for what?
why dont you tell me why?