Honestly

I feel happy to celebrate Christmas with you and the others
But at the end, the jealousy came back to me again
I always tried my best to get your attention
But it is obvious you don't really pay much attention on me
And you pay more attention to him
That's what I feel now
I wish you would know how I feel
I wish I'm brave enough to tell you what I feel
:(

Pathetic Week

What a pathetic week
Been over stressed on Monday till Wednesday because of the Web Development Assignment report
My face ate a ball during water polo session on Wednesday and my head ate a steel at the same time too
And today I'm officially bankrupt for real
Bout 3 packs of xxx from xxx which cause me RM 50++ while I only left RM 50 in wallet
Thx god my dear Becca borrow me RM 20 or else I'm gg.com
Hope tomorrow will be a fine day for my class outing ^^
Peace out
/wahaha

烦恼

这几天，
我都在烦着某些事情。
姐姐今天问了我一个问题，
“你对她的感觉是真的吗？要想清楚噢。。”
我没回答她。
在回家的路程，我一直都在想我心目中的答案。
说真的，被人拒绝了四次，
我什么感觉和经验都已经受过了。
伤心和痛苦都随着我度过人生
可是，被人拒绝了四次，
我学会了很多东西。
勇敢，忍耐，不放弃的精神，和人生道理。

其实，
我很想和她告白。
我对她的感觉是真的。
因为我从来都不会把感情当成个玩笑。
可是，
如果我被拒绝，我就会再受到痛苦。
如果没被拒绝，我就会怕我无法让她每天都觉得开心。
真是很烦。。。
Haih。。。

Stress

Recently,I'm stress
Wish you know that I care bout you
Wish you know that I'm fall in love with you
Wish you can hear me
Wish you will read this
Jealousy is torturing

Unexpected Saturday

Today plan was to go to  Oldtown near Midah there with Vad,Becca and Amma (Vad's Mom)
So, we reached there around 4.30p.m
Chit-chatting at there till 6p.m
Me and Becca went to Leisure Mall to watch movie
But Harry Potter doesnt wait for us
We did weird decision and went to Pavilion
Luckily, there is Mr Potter waiting for us in Pavilion at 9.30p.m
Finished the movie around 12a.m
And Shera drove me home
Kinda sleepy now to be honest
What an unexpected Saturday to be honest
/wahaha

Long Time

Yeah! I know!
Is been long time I didn't blog
Can be said,I'm lazy
What's new about me??
Not much to be honest
Trying my best to love a girl (well,of course she doesn't know it)
Trying my best to figure out why I'm easily get sick recently
Trying my best to complete all the assignment
A busy and challenging life I can say
Wish me luck!

I wish I could make a wise decision
Love is not that easy
You have to face jealousy, disappointment and pain
Should I just confess to her so that I can avoid all these things?
I wish I am brave enough to tell her,
"Yeah.I love you!"

P.S : I have finally deleted all the message that I had kept for almost a year.A step to move on I guess.

Day before Birthday

Yeah..
Gonna hit 18 after today
I understand that Vad is being busy with her STPM,
Becca is busy with her exam
While Pui Kei is busy with her hypnosis course
To be honest,
I almost cries when becca apologize for not being able to celebrate my birthday
But I just remain silent
Last year,
Someone promised me,that I wont feel lonely anymore while celebrating my birthday every year
Past 16 years,I never give a shit for my birthday celebration
I never hope for it too
Because of your promise,I truly appreciate what you had done last year
And I always hope you will fulfill your promise every year
Because of your promise,I even rejected my friend's plan
But now,I'm just nobody for you to remember your promise
I will just back to old life
Years by years without birthday celebration
Birthday will be a day for me to dislike
A day for me to be alone
As I said,promise is something that is full of shit