What the hell man?
I feel so stupid.
I'm glad that I'm brave enough to find you in chat yesterday.
Glad that our conversation doesn't sounds so cold.
But I'm too happy and it makes me getting hyper / over.
I'm kinda make you feel annoyed.
Sorry for that.
I gonna be good from now on :(
Even send you a message to explain.
Not sure whether it is a right choice or not,
But at least I wish you know how I feel,
And I also did something that are according to my instinct.
Being honest is what I always wanted to be.
Silly me.
Damn.
So scare that you will even ignore me after reading that message
T.T
Wednesday, August 24, 2011
Saturday, August 20, 2011
Friday Exam
Had my Moral paper today.
I reached Block H and bumped with Kar Mun.
Realized that we're gonna have our exam on the same block,
My heart beat so fast.
I don't know what I should do if I meet you.
Didn't see you pass by when I'm in the exam hall.
I been wondering the whole day,
Where are you? Are you having exam today? Why Kar Mun is here while I didn't see you?
Lots of question bugging my mind.
I was the 1st one to finish the paper, the first one to leave the hall after 1 hour.
Sitting at the garden, looking around, trying to figure out where are you and wondering whether you are here for exam.
4.30pm, all the people are out.
I'm still wondering whether I will see you or not.
I finally saw you.
But, I don't have the courage to look at you.
And yeah, you just passed by me, just like that.
Get back to home, checking up Facebook,
And finally realized that you are sad and down for something.
I'm not sure what is it,
But I suddenly feel sad as well.
Sad that I can't do anything but looking at you, telling your friends that you are sad.
They cheered you up, but I'm here, unable to do anything.
Now I'm so down.
Just wanna sleep and dream of you.
Don't be sad, sillynie.
Don't be sad. Sorry for hurting you so much.
I reached Block H and bumped with Kar Mun.
Realized that we're gonna have our exam on the same block,
My heart beat so fast.
I don't know what I should do if I meet you.
Didn't see you pass by when I'm in the exam hall.
I been wondering the whole day,
Where are you? Are you having exam today? Why Kar Mun is here while I didn't see you?
Lots of question bugging my mind.
I was the 1st one to finish the paper, the first one to leave the hall after 1 hour.
Sitting at the garden, looking around, trying to figure out where are you and wondering whether you are here for exam.
4.30pm, all the people are out.
I'm still wondering whether I will see you or not.
I finally saw you.
But, I don't have the courage to look at you.
And yeah, you just passed by me, just like that.
Get back to home, checking up Facebook,
And finally realized that you are sad and down for something.
I'm not sure what is it,
But I suddenly feel sad as well.
Sad that I can't do anything but looking at you, telling your friends that you are sad.
They cheered you up, but I'm here, unable to do anything.
Now I'm so down.
Just wanna sleep and dream of you.
Don't be sad, sillynie.
Don't be sad. Sorry for hurting you so much.
Tuesday, August 16, 2011
What gonna happen?
Saw your latest status.
Feel like you were aiming me (Not sure whether I'm too sensitive or what).
I tried to act like I didn't read it.
But my mind been through a lot of things.
I shouldn't whine at first.
Gonna start my final exam.
Feel a little bit stress up recently.
Really need to work hard this time.
I miss you.
Hope you are doing fine.
Feel like you were aiming me (Not sure whether I'm too sensitive or what).
I tried to act like I didn't read it.
But my mind been through a lot of things.
I shouldn't whine at first.
Gonna start my final exam.
Feel a little bit stress up recently.
Really need to work hard this time.
I miss you.
Hope you are doing fine.
Friday, August 12, 2011
What Are Words
Been through a lot of things lately.
I don't know where and how to start.
Barely blog it out because I scare I might cried.
But now, here I am, decided to dissolve the dust away with my tears.
Involving myself in this year OO is really meaningful.
Although at the end, the results are terribly bad in my opinion.
All the people in college are agreed that this year OO is more awesome than previous year.
But none of them know how much the committee and finalists sacrificed.
They don't even know how many things I had sacrificed for OO.
I failed 2 coursework because of OO.
My time management is sucks apparently.
Gotta score well in coming make good test in order to pass my exams.
I'm still lazying around, unwilling to read the notes now.
It's getting nearer and nearer.
Next week is final exam as well.
Need to hush up myself in this few days.
I decided to let go a friend who I think doesn't worth for me at all.
I saw through a lot of things about him.
I feel so hurt to be honest, for what he had done to me at the final post mortem.
Not gonna talk much about this.
Because it's pointless from now on.
And you, Serenie.
I fall in love with you after the OO 2nd PnP.
I still remember the day I miss you so much while you were at Malacca for the SIPMA.
Day by day, I'd be thinking of you, hope you are doing fine over there.
Because of the feelings,
I even decided to promote you as my Assistant right after you are back.
You are the kind of girl who can definitely do the job very well.
I thought both of us can get along very well.
But I'm sucks in controlling my emotion / stress.
I hurt you lots of time.
I tried to tell you everything.
But I don't know why I cant make it.
I just love you, and doesn't want you to burden yourself with my problem.
You tried to help me, but I just keep on pushing your help away.
What a stupid me!
Things getting more hurt when Actual Night is getting near.
Me and you are becoming stranger to each other while you are getting closer to others.
Every time I see you, I can't get near to you.
Because I'm stuck in the middle of trying to be professional in works and also a guy who wanna get your attention.
It's very painful for me to see you sitting there, while I can't make any move.
I still remember, you promised to talk with me after the Saturday morning exercises.
But instead, you went back home with your junior right after the lunch.
You make me feel like I'm being forgotten by you.
I was down for the whole evening.
When I walking to the escalator at LRT, I met you.
And I sit besides you without saying anything.
My heart feel so confused, doesn't know what to say.
I ridiculously poked you and asked you a question that I wanted to ask day by day.
"What do you think about me recently?"
Yeah. I get what I want and I'm not gonna post it up here.
Things fly to Actual Day.
I'm being pissy at the morning because of some stuff.
I texted you but your reply hurt me so much.
You asked why everything I have to wait for you.
Why can't I settle it myself?
The moment I read your reply, my heart sunk to the max.
I'm not gonna blame you.
All I can do is to blame myself.
I disappointed you on the night.
Really really disappointed you.
I dont even want to defend myself, because everyone will still blame me no matter what.
OO is already over.
You are still being cold to me.
I tried to be cool and date you out,
But your questioning are hurting me deeply.
We barely contact each other.
Everyday, I'd been refreshing your page,
Hope to get your latest updates.
I know it is not a good thing by stalking you.
But that's the only way for me to know things about you.
Saw your latest photo.
You are still that adorable, but I don't know why,
The moment I see the photo, my heart are mixing up.
Sad, nervous and disappointment.
I don't know how to express out my feelings anymore.
Chris Medina's song is very meaningful.
What Are Words.
This is the only song that can suit my feeling everyday.
So disappointed of myself to be honest.
Sign off~
I don't know where and how to start.
Barely blog it out because I scare I might cried.
But now, here I am, decided to dissolve the dust away with my tears.
Involving myself in this year OO is really meaningful.
Although at the end, the results are terribly bad in my opinion.
All the people in college are agreed that this year OO is more awesome than previous year.
But none of them know how much the committee and finalists sacrificed.
They don't even know how many things I had sacrificed for OO.
I failed 2 coursework because of OO.
My time management is sucks apparently.
Gotta score well in coming make good test in order to pass my exams.
I'm still lazying around, unwilling to read the notes now.
It's getting nearer and nearer.
Next week is final exam as well.
Need to hush up myself in this few days.
I decided to let go a friend who I think doesn't worth for me at all.
I saw through a lot of things about him.
I feel so hurt to be honest, for what he had done to me at the final post mortem.
Not gonna talk much about this.
Because it's pointless from now on.
And you, Serenie.
I fall in love with you after the OO 2nd PnP.
I still remember the day I miss you so much while you were at Malacca for the SIPMA.
Day by day, I'd be thinking of you, hope you are doing fine over there.
Because of the feelings,
I even decided to promote you as my Assistant right after you are back.
You are the kind of girl who can definitely do the job very well.
I thought both of us can get along very well.
But I'm sucks in controlling my emotion / stress.
I hurt you lots of time.
I tried to tell you everything.
But I don't know why I cant make it.
I just love you, and doesn't want you to burden yourself with my problem.
You tried to help me, but I just keep on pushing your help away.
What a stupid me!
Things getting more hurt when Actual Night is getting near.
Me and you are becoming stranger to each other while you are getting closer to others.
Every time I see you, I can't get near to you.
Because I'm stuck in the middle of trying to be professional in works and also a guy who wanna get your attention.
It's very painful for me to see you sitting there, while I can't make any move.
I still remember, you promised to talk with me after the Saturday morning exercises.
But instead, you went back home with your junior right after the lunch.
You make me feel like I'm being forgotten by you.
I was down for the whole evening.
When I walking to the escalator at LRT, I met you.
And I sit besides you without saying anything.
My heart feel so confused, doesn't know what to say.
I ridiculously poked you and asked you a question that I wanted to ask day by day.
"What do you think about me recently?"
Yeah. I get what I want and I'm not gonna post it up here.
Things fly to Actual Day.
I'm being pissy at the morning because of some stuff.
I texted you but your reply hurt me so much.
You asked why everything I have to wait for you.
Why can't I settle it myself?
The moment I read your reply, my heart sunk to the max.
I'm not gonna blame you.
All I can do is to blame myself.
I disappointed you on the night.
Really really disappointed you.
I dont even want to defend myself, because everyone will still blame me no matter what.
OO is already over.
You are still being cold to me.
I tried to be cool and date you out,
But your questioning are hurting me deeply.
We barely contact each other.
Everyday, I'd been refreshing your page,
Hope to get your latest updates.
I know it is not a good thing by stalking you.
But that's the only way for me to know things about you.
Saw your latest photo.
You are still that adorable, but I don't know why,
The moment I see the photo, my heart are mixing up.
Sad, nervous and disappointment.
I don't know how to express out my feelings anymore.
Chris Medina's song is very meaningful.
What Are Words.
This is the only song that can suit my feeling everyday.
So disappointed of myself to be honest.
Sign off~
Monday, August 1, 2011
A lot of things
A lot of things happened recently.
Don't have the mood to recall back those useless memories.
Dear Vad finally went to Indonesia for studies.
I'm gonna miss her so much.
And you,
Been stalking your facebook profile for weeks.
Without bugging you and etc.
But today, you poped up at my chatbox.
I do feel glad.
I might realized of something about you.
Not sure whether it is true or not,
I better not telling the world.
Pui Kei's bday coming soon.
Damn.
She been bugging me for 2 birthday present.
My bad for not giving her last year
LOL
Love you pui kei! :)
Don't have the mood to recall back those useless memories.
Dear Vad finally went to Indonesia for studies.
I'm gonna miss her so much.
And you,
Been stalking your facebook profile for weeks.
Without bugging you and etc.
But today, you poped up at my chatbox.
I do feel glad.
I might realized of something about you.
Not sure whether it is true or not,
I better not telling the world.
Pui Kei's bday coming soon.
Damn.
She been bugging me for 2 birthday present.
My bad for not giving her last year
LOL
Love you pui kei! :)
Sunday, July 24, 2011
My Fault
My fault to promote you as my assistant.
I fucked up a lot of things.
You are the one who help me sort out most of the troubles, although I might not realized it.
You seen through a lot of my bad side,
Till you lost the trust on me.
You being cold to me these days.
It feels like there wont be any chances.
It's kinda hurt, you know?
I fucked up a lot of things.
You are the one who help me sort out most of the troubles, although I might not realized it.
You seen through a lot of my bad side,
Till you lost the trust on me.
You being cold to me these days.
It feels like there wont be any chances.
It's kinda hurt, you know?
Sunday, July 10, 2011
Bleh You
You were MIA for few days.
So, I text you and you get me on fb.
Had really nice chat with you.
But pissed you off at the end.
Hope you doesn't take it seriously.
Love you although you doesn't know it.
So, I text you and you get me on fb.
Had really nice chat with you.
But pissed you off at the end.
Hope you doesn't take it seriously.
Love you although you doesn't know it.
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