Terrible Day

My mood is terribly down today.
My mom lectured me early in the morning about the family issues again.
Seriously, I'm tired of all this ridiculous hatred chaining this whole family.
Why is it everyone in my family are so greedy, selfish and materialistic?
Why their heart are all blind till there's no sense of love in them anymore?
Why they tried to be fake in front of me?

Honestly,
I'm always jealous of people who are close with their family.
I'm jealous of those who got the love from their grandmother, while my grandmother never think of me as her grandson.
I used to love her very much when I was a kid.
But as I grow up, I see her true color.
She never love me like how I loved her.
All the lovely treatment, are all fake from the start till the end.
My mom told me that when I was young, my grandma abandoned me although she knew I'm sick.
My aunts and uncles are all richer than my family. And it makes them showing their materialistic attitude to my family as well.
I'm totally speechless about this family.
I don't know how to love this family anymore.
Tears wont flow for this family because they are not worth for my tears anymore.
2 more days and it will be officially 6 years of my life of not getting any love from the family.
I have been a lonely person for 6 years.
A son who wake up at 6am everyday, went to school early in the morning, back to home at evening or night, and spend most of the time alone in room.
I lived with this kind of life for almost 6 years.
Not even a single person in my life know about my pathetic fate.
It's a shameful burden on my shoulder, something that I don't wish to share out with anyone.
"Sometimes, the person who tries to keep everyone happy, is the most lonely person"
This quote is true.
Life can be so unfair sometimes.
Peace out.