A lot of things change

"The first time I went to Yuen was during my 16th birthday with the crazy gang.Superb birthday.
But I guess a lot of things change after we left high school.The crazy gang now not so crazy anymore."

Was going through Debbie's blog and saw one of her post about a steamboat restaurant.
It makes me remind of something years ago.
Her 16th birthday celebration where we went to Sunway Lagoon and had steamboat as dinner.
I searched for the celebration post and the memories came back to me.
We are indeed a bunch of crazy people during high school.
But I couldn't agree more with how she felt.
A lot of things change after we left high school, including myself.
We have our own path to walk on.
We change during the journey.
We meet new friends and new enemies.
And somehow, we started to forget our high school memories.
And I feel guilty for it.

Why We Stopped Talking?

If we used to talk and don't anymore,
Chances are I miss the hell out of you
But I know you dislike me.
And that's why we stopped talking.
I hope someday in the future,
You will come across here and read this.

A Lil Update

Is been a while I blogged.
Been busy with studies and and exam.
Last paper on this Monday.
Good luck for myself.

Life is unpredictable.
I was the Program Master for OO past 2 years.
This year, some fool back-stabbed me and took my place.
To be honest, I don't mind if someone replace me.
But not you, I can't believe you as my assistant, back-stabbed me.
And I can see that you are being arrogant and refused to ask for my help.
You might not be able to accept how I work things out,
But for your information, everyone dislikes how you work as well.
I dislike being a power freak and scold everyone for not doing their job well.
College event is for us to learn and gain experiences, not for us to scold each other like a stupid fuck mad dog.
I still remember you said you disagreed with my view.
But hey, things work out fine last year.
We did our job in our own way.
But now, I will just sit back and watch you stress out and cause internal chaos.
Bloody power freak, arrogant, stupid bastard.

Yes, I clearly hate backstabber.
I might not be as good as you expected.
But life is all about learning.
No one is perfect.
But if you wanna be an asshole and step on me because of my weakness,
Go on, I don't care.
I will just live up my life and learn as much as I can, while you just gain nothing.

Dont Give Up

New semester started.
Been adapting to habit of jogging recently.
Im going to keep jogging till I reach my goal.
There is this girl, a very pretty long hair white jacket girl.
I met her at Lake Club.
I dont know her at all but I see her keep jogging.
Even its raining, she still jog.
I only managed to jog for 1 round due to the raining weather.
But this girl jogged more than 10 rounds already.
I keep on watching her jog and jog without a rest.
To be honest, I think I fall in love with her determination, stamina, and her long hair.
She make me feel determine to increase my stamina and improve my lifestyle.
Wish I can meet her again, and catch up with her someday.
#sillydream

something to think about

my mom's baking stuff was dead today.
she waited for my dad to bring her to shop to buy a new one.
my dad's phone dead and he came back home 3 hours late, which pissed off my mom.
she scolded him without asking anything.
as usual, my dad says nothing.
while my mom being mad in room, my dad spend some time to examine the machine.
I feel pity for him and decided to join him and we managed to fix it later on.

my point is,
dad is always here to solve our problems.
even if he is being scolded, he is still being calm and fix the problem.
i stop caring about my family for few years, maybe 5 years.
after i moved out, i experienced a lot of things and it makes me realize i should stop acting like a fool.
and i managed to keep my promise to myself for this semester break.
please appreciate your family.

Why Still Look Back?

I asked myself,
Why still stalk, why still read, why still care?
being rejected, not giving up, being ignored.
tried to be friendly and normal but end up being treated like I'm a very bad person to talk with.
tried to joke but end up being told I'm not funny.
but I still read, watch, care, stalk.
now i ask myself,
for what?
why dont you tell me why?

Semester Break Plan

I think I know what I should do for this semester break.

Get close to my family, and code some stuff for my upcoming text-based web game.

Moved out from home kinda make me think alot.

I believe I should spend more time with family now.

Nothing is more important than that.