Here I Go

Always tried my best not to take a nap during evening.
But at the end, I woke up after 7pm.
It makes me unable to sleep at night.
And here I go again, insomnia-ing.

Stomachache at the middle of Lilo & Stitch movie.
I guess I get food poisoning.
Pretty bad luck of me, again.

Started to feel kinda down since yesterday.
Including today as well.
Feel a lil bit disappointed.
Maybe, I should't ZXhwZWN0IHRvbyBtdWNoIGZyb20geW91 .

Ughh. 

Is already 6.11am.

And I'm still awake.
I effing hate insomnia so much!! :(

Torturing

This semester break is very very torturing.
Didn't have much outing.
Everyday been facing laptop.
Facebook, IRC, Tetris, Maple, Mafiacrime, Youtube and Jango.
4 more days before the holiday end.
Result is coming out soon.
Have the feel that I'm going to fail 2 subjects, or more.
Damn.
\o/

Hmmm. Suddenly feel kinda down. Like my heart is
missing something. :(

I'm so scared now.

Mid Autumn Festival

Well, I didn't really celebrate it for like 6 years.
I don't really feel like I'm part of this family since 7 years ago.
Sometimes, I do feel like being Itachi Uchiha, the famous anime character in Naruto.
If you doesn't read the manga,
Itachi Uchiha is a member of Uchiha Clan.
He slaughtered the entire clan to bring peace for the Konoha Village.
He is actually doing a right thing.
Because his clan is full of hatred and greedy enough to overthrow the village.
This same goes to my family.
Everyone of this family are bloody materialistic and greedy.
And because of this, it caused hatred among each other.
I'm being a tool for them since I was born.
I'm seriously tired of their bullshit.
Its make me seriously wanna crush this entire family.
Enough with my "family talk"
Go Itachi!

Well, speak about Mid Autumn Festival,
There was 1 incident happened during the last time I celebrate it.
Yeah, I been holding the lantern and walk around the road with my neighbors' children.
The candle drop of my lantern fell off right on my foot.
It was bloody pain since its kinda big drop.
I immediately take it off right after the candle drop went dried.
As the result, that part of my skin was gone and now,
There is an unforgettable scar...


Well, I feel that tonight post is kinda silly.
K. Shall just sign off and go play some DOTA.
Happy MoonCake Festival to yall :)
\o/~

Wowww

This is sucks.
Insomnia truly killing me.
Just came back from CC with my buddy.
Now I'm bloody energetic and can't sleep at all.
Guess what I'm doing now.
Browsing through my Facebook friend list.
Yeah. I'm gonna check through the 1863 people in my friend list to kill some time.
Wowwww. This is shit. F.M.L \o/

Suffering

Yeah. This is bullshit.
Been having insomnia these few days.
Unable to sleep at the right timing for 4 days straight.
Always sleep at 5 or 6am, and wake up at 12pm.
This semester break is boring.
Didn't do much stuff.
Spent most of my time in IRC (Internet Relay Chat), trolling around like a badass mofo.

Come to think about it,
Im glad to join MafiaCrime, an online text-based mafia game, almost 3 years ago.
I get to know many friends around the world.
Brad and Dale, both are admin of the game and they lived in UK.
Funny friends, and I even Whatsapp Brad recently for fun :P
Dale helped me lots in my studies while I'm in Semester 2.

Cassy, a hawt babe from Norway :P
She is the most sweetest person I ever met in cyber world.
Still remember that I entrusted her with my sexy game account while I'm gone for National Service.

Stan, a badass internet troller from Canada.
He is younger than me like 4 years.
And he taught me how to DOS(Denial of Services)
Thanks to him as well, I learned how to get my own free website :D

Adam, aka RevCo is a very nice person as well.
He is an old punk who lived in California.
I talked to him a lot, and he always give me advice when I have troubles in real life.
There are too many people to mention since IRC is a place for people to come and go.
I seriously have a thought to ask all of them to come over here.
I'm gonna bring them out for KL Tour :P

What a joke!
Can't even believe I blogged about my internet friends.
Well, that shows you how bored I'm.
Oh btw,
I'm gonna try to maı̸̸̸̸̸̸̸̸̸̸̸̸̸̸̸̸̨̨̨̨̨̨k­e u wipe your screen.
:P

What's In My Mind?

Lots of stuff.
Don't know who to whine.
Been looking for people to express it.
But either they have no interests, or just speechless.

Someone from the past said this to me :
"Understand yourself, before you understand someone"
Till now, I gotta admit that I don't even understand myself.
What do I want?
Why my life is so unusual than the others?

Yeah, I'm an over-deep-thinking person.
Sometimes, I will over think something simple.
Sometimes, I will think deeply of something.
I'm a very caring person too as a friend.
But if there is someone special to me,
I will become a terrible over-caring person.
This is the only 2 things that make me hate about myself.
When this happen on someone,
Not many of them will really understand me.
They will either hate me, or feel that I'm childish.

There was a girl who do really hurt me because of my bad personalities.
Because of her, I gone through a lots of hurtful things.
Sadness, lies and regret.
It took me almost 1 year to overcome everything.
Thanks to her,
I learned a lots of stuff as well.
But still, it's not enough for me.
Human are just complicated.

Honestly, I stopped being obsessed of your fb profile for almost a week.
In other words, I tried my best not to "stalk" you as much as before.
I am such an annoying bastard.
I know you gonna hate me so much right now

Passed by my old blog
Whenever I look at it,
I feel that
Wow, I'm truly an immature person.
But mehh, blog is still a place for me to whine.
No matter mature or immature stuffs.

A brand new world

After been through a lots of things,
I realized that human are very naive.
They tend to judge you by just seeing how you work.
And they are too lazy to really understand how you work.
When you are sucks, they wont want you to join them anymore.
They refuse to let you learn more to improve yourself
All they care, is the output of the work.
Not your effort, sacrifices and the will of learning.

This kind of people, yes they are very a successful person.
But they are absolute fail for me.
They tend to neglect the meaning of life.
Doing event as a very freshman Program Master,
Is a very hardcore and challenging things.
Because of my weakness, I lost a lots of thing.

Hell yes I'm going to be strong.
But it will take some time.
There is still a mark in my mind and heart.
A very painful memories and feelings.

Facebook are getting no privacy for me.
Barely update any statuses because it's useless when no one gonna care bout how I feel.
When I care about someone, they will think "You are annoying.".
It's ****** hurt, you know?
I'm sure you wont even care.

Debbie is right, FB is getting useless.